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gw ini kebutuhan apa keinginan???

baru aja gw sampe di bandung. ketemu sama paman dan bibi,, ahahaha..

lagi becanda2 gtu, tiba2 sang paman bertanya.. pacar km itu nganggep km kebutuhan apa keinginan? km anggep pacar km kebutuhan apa keinginan?? gw spontan jawab kebutuhan.. kenapa? karena emang gw butuh dy. gw ga cm kepengen ada dia doank. tp gw butuh dia disamping gw. kalo appa ga ada gw bakal nyari dy. bukan supaya pengen dia ada aja, tapi gw butuh dy ada disamping gw dan melakukan sesuatu bwat gw (entah itu cuman bwat support gw or give comment of anything).

penjelasan paman gw adalah, kalau keinginan itu tidak tahan lama. sedangkan kebutuhan itu bertahan lebih lama dan bahkan tidak akan hilang. keinginan bisa berganti dengan yg laen sedangkan kebutuhan tidak. kita bisa kepengen makan coklat, tapi sesaat berganti permen. namun untuk hidup sehat kita butuh yang namanya air putih dan itu tidak bisa diganti dengan apapun, baik itu kopi, soda, teh. karena yg kita butuhkan air putih. sesaat gw mikir, hmm, bener juga ya pemikiran itu. hahaha

tapi ada kelanjutan dari penjelasan paman gw : apakah setiap malam kamu mendoakan pasangan mu supaya sehat selalu, sukses selalu? apakah cuma butuh doank tp ga mendoakan nya? hmmmm, agak religius sih,tp itu bikin gw mikir lagi.. berarti selama ini gw butuh tapi ga bantu, walaupun cm mendoakan dy.. hahaha.. kadang gw suka koq doain biar sukses, diselipin di setiap doa gw utk keluarga gw... tapi emang gw aja yg jarang doa malem.. haha.. nista bener dah.. =P

bentar lagi gw pegi dan gw masih belum siap packing apa2. okayy, hal pertama yang harus dilakukan adalah buat list apa yg harus dibawa. itu yg gw ga tau. hmmm, coba dipikirkan dlu.

1. baju (gw mungkin bawa 15 biji doank nih.. biar ga kepenuhan koperna)

2. celana ( sama ky baju. bahkan lebih sedikit)

3. underwear ( well, ini liat nti dah bawa brapa.. hahaha )

4 notes (kalo bisa uda ada ringkasan nya, isinya berupa grammar2 yg sering dpake dan kata2 yg sering digunain)

5. kamus (kamus 5kilo kenji matsuura dan kamus kanji)

6. obat ( panadol, polysilane, decolgen, betadine, hansaplas, minyak kayu putih)

7. dokumen2 ( fotokopi ktp, paspor, visa, foto, akte klahiran, kartu kluarga, npwp)

8. mantel, sarung tangan, syal, kaos kaki, kupluk

9. DUIT (ini yang amat sangat penting)

10 . kamera digital (mao beliiiii.. canon s90) *jadi kalo update blog bisa pake foto2 gtu. hahahaha..

apa lagi yah yg harus dibawa? hmmm, moga2 ga ada yg kelupaan yah..

moga2 pulang dari bandung bs langsung packing deh.. hahahaha... =P

finally

GOD THANKS A LOT!
visa gw akhirnya kluar juga temans.. sekarang resmi saiia akan berangkat ke jpg tanpa halangan.. amiiiiinnnnnn...
tadi deg-degan sangad pas nunggu nomer antrian gw dpanggil.. gimana kalo tiba2 visanya ditolak, gmana kalo visanya salah nama, gimana kalo salah bawa dokumen dan pending, gmana kalao dan kalao... but, it's all over now. i get my visa. yeay..
gw smpet shock sangat pas tau kalo visa ditolak kita dilarang bwat ngajuin visa ke jpg lagi selama 6bulan.. parah.. hhahaha.. tp yg penting visa dah kelar..yeay

hari ini gw ketemu sama bong jan thong.. aka teddy davonar..thanks to him, gw kenyang makan kiyadon sushi. tadinya mau samudra suki, tp dy pengen makan gogorengan, alhasil di kiyadon sushi deh.. hahaha.. dy sempet ngenalin cowo yg katanya artis ftv namanya chris gtu deh.. ganteng sia orangnya.. sayang gw gaminat.. sejenis sih sama bong.. hahahaha.. tp asli loh, badannya tinggi, kekar, ganteng, sayang ga lurus.. hahahaha..
*appa, gomen, you are still the best lah.. hahaha*

sbelom makan di kiyadon, gw sama wendy sempet keliling2 TA,, nyari kalung.. yap, gw pengen punya kalung baru.. dan kembar sama appa.. hehehe.. tadinya rencana gw mau bikin senora mungkin.. alay2 gtu deh.. pake kalung hati yg kebagi 2 gtu, ky iklan ponds.. sayangnya niad gw kurang kuat, malu juga belinya, dan kebetulan itu toko ga jual kalung hati kepotong 2 gtu.. hahaha.. niat gw menjadi alay tidak direstui.. *selamat kau,appa!*
akhirnya gw beli kalung cewe sama cowo lagi ciuman.. tp dibagi 2 kalung.. si cewe gw yang pegang, si cowo appa yang pegang. kalo diliat sendiri2 aneh jg posenya.. pada monyong2 dan nungging gtu.. tp kalo dideretin jd ucul dan aga porno. hahaahha.. ada2 aja dah kalungna..
XD

yaa, moga2 sih tuh kalung awet. sama seperti gw dan appa.. aminnnnnn~ hahahaha..
sebenernya gw pengen buru2 ngasih tau alamat blog ini ke appa, cm gw masih nunggu saat yg tepat bwat ngasih tau..
soalna kalo appa baca ini, gw yg malu sndiri.. soalna ni blog isinya 80persen soal dy.. haahhahaaha.. yaaa, mau gmana lagi, krna appa gw berniat bikin blog.. soalna kalo di jpg gw ga bisa crita apa2 lagi sama appa.. jd lewat ini aja deh gw ceritanya.. kalo appa dah baca blog ini mgkin postingan gw dikomen2 deh.. ahhahahaa.. ga sabar deh pengen liat reaksi appa pas baca blog ini.. hahahaha

yak, sekian dlu gw dah ngantuk.. nitez all~

time flies

Gila banget dah, tinggal 2 minggu lagi dan gw akan pergi.. cepet banget waktu jalan yak? hari kamis nanti visa gw insya allah kelar, tiket udah dibayar, but... gw masih blum rela pergi.. gw masih blum kangen2an sama appa.. jalan2 ke safari brg dy.. ahahaha... gw bener2 blum rela pegi sebenernya.. tp, there's no turning back. when i said i will go back then, i must know the consequence.. gyaaaaaaa... appa, wait for me okay???

Hari ini smua rencana gw brantakan.. tadinya hari ini gw bakal pegang BB merah dan bisa berbebeeman ria sama appa sampe pagi... maen ping2an.. haahahaha.. sygnya smua ga kesampean. gw ga jadi beli bb hr ini. appa jadi beli warna putih. pdhl tadi ada warna biru yg dia pengen. dasar appa aneh.. hahaha... knapa gw ga jadi beli bb?? itu smua karna bokap tau dari temennya kalo bb di indo ga bisa dpake di jepang. ktny beda frekuensi. jadiny gw mending beli disana langsung.

Sebenernya yg bikin gw bete bukan gara2 gw ga dapet BB.. gw bukan penggila bb koq. bahkan gw sama skali ga addictif sama bb.. i don't mind at all... tapi yg bikin gw bete, kesel, sedih adalah gw udah ngebayangin hari ini gw bisa BBM seharian sama appa, gw bisa chat sm dy pake BB baru yg gw beli bareng sm dy.. gw sama skali ga mempersiapkan charger bwat hp lama gw dan gw ga bawa batre laptop, karna gw pikir gw bakal sibuk berbb ria sama appa.. dan smuanya gagal total.. gw bingung.. hp lowbat, laptop lowbat.. damn...

BBMan sambil nunggu dokter gigi.. BBMan di mobil.. ngobrol tanpa khawatir pending sms or pulsa.. HUUUUUUH..

yg ada skrg itu, chat di ym sambil dag dig dug duer, kapan laptop gw bakal mati.. trus kalo laptop mati gw harus pake apa? mgkin henpon sambil korek2 lemari nyari charger berharap ketemu.. huweeeee... pengen buru2 balik ke jakt.. trus ntn resident evil deh sama appa.. T_T

moga2 bsk malem dapet tiket bwat ntn nya.. hehehehe.. males bgt dah kuliah bsk. huuuh..

Oh iya, byk banget yg harus disiapin.. baju dingin, appa, spatu boots, appa, celana legging, appa, underwear dkk, appa, kamus... hmmm, td uda ak sebutin appa blum??? aaaaaa, aku butuh appa dsana... huuuuuh.. *oke, sadar ci!!*

yak, batre laptop gw tgl 18menit lagi.. saatnya ngpost.. drpd mati dan ga kesave. hahahaha

XD

just another day

another day passed by, and it makes me sad thinking that i won't do this again for the next 1 year. today we ate at kiyadon sushi, he doesn't like sushi but i insist. so he ate them. poor him. so sorry~ T_T
the more i spent my days with him, the more i love being his girl. i'm so gonna miss him a lot...

Being his girl doesn't mean i completely think he's so perfect. he's sooooo imperfect.. ^o^
but i still can stand his imperfectness. i just hope they don't get worse. if they get any worse, i'm gonna bite him. hahaha

everybody told me that having a long distance relationship is as hard as keeping the ice in the fire. well, i agree with that, though. but it's not impossible. i believe this is just a small test before i really sure he is the one. i'm not playing around with my love life. i don't want to waste my time just to meet one boy, being in love, and break up, then meet another one, knowing him again, loving him, and break up again. it's just wasting my time. i just want to have one long lasting relationship. my dream is having the first and last boyfriend. so i won't waste him.

But, that doesn't mean i will push my relationship with him. in case if we better seperate, i won't make a drama. if that's the best way for us, i'll accept that. but that's the worst case happened. i'll try not to make that happen though.

Back to reality, now what will gonna happen when i'm away?? first i'm gonna talk about me.

I'll find some new friends. i'll have fun there, and have new activities. well, that's good one.
without my phone, i can't SMS him everyday every hour just like now. maybe i can only chat with him by Yahoo messenger or facebook. i can't meet him for 1 year. he can't come to my place like always. we have a 2 hours difference of time. i'll eat alone without him and i can't bite him. no more kisses and hugs for the whole year.
Damn, i'm crying now.

Now, let's talk about him.

He'll have a lot of time. he said he wants to study hard to improve is grade. he can focus on his studying. this year, i hope he can get a job he want to. after all, i was the one who monopolize him. hahaha. now, i'm not around so he get more free time.
But, he can't go to my place anymore. we won't see each other for some time. he must find his meal alone (i think he doesn't mind it, because i always picked expensive food =P). he doesn't need to hold his phone to reply my SMS. i'm sure he'll get bored a lot, like when i was in my hometown. but he can't even SMS me. i'm sure he'll miss me, won't he? TT_TT

That's bad, really bad. can we pass the next year? i'm not sure. but, i hope for the best. i'm sure God will guide us. if we can pass this test, i'm sure i picked the right choice, making him as my first boy. maybe when time passed by, and hi, i'm back in 2011 later, when i read this post, i'll smile and say we made it.. or i'll cry and say we break it?? i hope not..

Dear God,
please make us strong enough to pass this obstacles. lead our way and give the best ending ever.
I'm sure You already created the best ending for all of us, and i hope for the best happy ending. Be with us everytime and don't leave us alone. Because whatever happen next, is Your plan and i believe in Your plan.
Amin...

pieces of thought

tinggal ngitung beberapa belas hari lagi dan gw akan pergi dr negara yg gw injek bahkan sejak pertama gw bisa jalan. untuk pertama kalinya dlm hidup gw, menginjakkan kaki di negeri orang. yg bahkan gw sndiri ga percaya gw bisa pergi ke sana. gatau apa yg bakal terjadi disana nanti, gimana hidup gw disana. di jakarta hidup gw enak, semua ada, mau makan ada, maen game lengkap, nonton bioskop gampang, pacar ada *hehehe*. tapi disana smuanya back to zero. semuanya ga ada. well, gw hrs berusaha sendirian selama 1 tahun. tapi itu kan yg jadi tujuan gw selama ini? haha.. knapa sekarang ada kegalauan di kepala gw?

Dulu, mungkin ga pernah kepikiran kalo hari itu bakal kejadian. Siapa sangka sih, seorang Maisie yang tiap remed kimia dan fisika slalu iktan, ga pernah keliatan di kelas *invisible* , adanya di belakang temen dan ga pernah terlihat menonjol di segala bidang, tiba2 bisa pergi ke jepang selama 1 tahun. bahkan temen2 gw yg dulu masuk kategori murid pinter SMA, skrg masih smester 3 di singapore. sementara gw, udah semester 7 dan skrg bakal lanjut kuliah di Jepang. hahaha.. dunia berputar kawan. hmm, knapa gw terlihat sombong yah? hahaha. gpp lah, sdikit doank. =D

Oh, ada 1 hal lagi yg berubah, dan gw rasa gw bangga dgn hal ini. Well, gw punya someone special. and it's already been almost 11month. dibandingkan smua temen SMA gw, yg ampir smuanya pernah merasakan indahnya cinta jaman SMA, gw blom pernah. masa SMA gw ga dihiasin bumbu cinta. mgkin itu yg membuat masa SMA gw terlupakan. gw bahkan uda lupa gimana masa-masa SMA gw. dulu banyak yang bilang, setelah masuk masa kuliah, kalian akan mengulang kembali masa SMA kalian. well, dengan tegas gw bilang itu SALAH. gw ga mao kembali ke masa SMA. gw enjoy banget masa kuliah gw. hehe. i feel my life in this university. hahaha.

back to topic. yups, ada kegalauan dalem kepala gw skarang. and you know what is that? LDR. hahaha.. it sounds stupid but yeah, i'm scared of LDR. this is my first time and i hope its my last, but we must have a LDR? well, to tell the truth, i'm not ready for this kind of relationship. and by the way, why english now? *whatever*

i've heard stories, lots of stories about LDR. and almost every story ends with sad ending. *miris* Fuahhh, what the hell will happen to mine? i hope it's a good one.

gw ga negative thinking koq, cuman entah ini sifat dasar gw mungkin, gw slalu memikirkan kemungkinan terburuknya. what if i couldn't contact him? what if he get bored waiting for me? what if. what if.. what if... fuck that.. hahahhaa..

gw percaya koq sama dy. selama gw pergi, dy bakal berusaha bwat memperbaiki nilai2 dia yg selama ini secara tidak langsung gw hancurkan * maafff..huhuhu*

So, ga mungkin dy cari kesibukan lagi dan cari pengganti gw..secara kayanya gw slama ini ngerepotin dy bgt.. dan nyita ampir semua waktu dy.. hahaha...

yang gw takutin adalah...... GW.. yaps, masalahnya ada di gw.. gimana kalo gw yang bertingkah aneh2.. hahhaha... gw bakal berasa sangat jahat kalo gw yang membuat dy kecewa. apalagi kalo gw kehilangan dy, mungkin gw ga bakal dpt yang lebih baek dari dy. atau bukan? yaa, entahlah. yang pasti sekarang gw ga mau ngecewaiin dy. gw ga mau kehilangan dy. mau LDR ato LDF ato LDapapun juga, gw jabanin dah.. hahahaha..

ada 1 doa yang menurut gw lucu banget tp gw banget. gini :

"Tuhan, semoga dia jodohku. apabila dia jodohku, dekatkan aku, mudahkan jalan kami. apabila dia bukan jodohku, jodohkanlah kami. apabila dia sudah berjodoh dengan orang lain, putuskan jodoh mereka dan jodohkanlah dengan aku. Amin"

Yups, gw tau ni doa maksa banget. hahaha.. kesannya desperate banget doanya. tapi kalo dibaca, lucu aja. ahahaha..

Document dkk

Today, 6-09-2010, eligibility gw akhirnya sampaiii! yeahhh, dari kemaren uda nunggu-nunggu, takut nyasar kemana trus ilang, akhirnya tadi pagi ada telepon dari mas-mas ems nya nanyain alamat.. uhuy! akhirnya uda bisa ngurus visa.. moga2 cepet kelar deh jadi bisa liburan dengan tenang. hehe..

but, my appa still sicks.. huweeee.. hari slasa besok rencananya mau karaokean kan, ngerayain ultah gita. yg dateng couple smua, dan masa gw hrs sendirian lagi.. well, ga masalah sih sebenernya, paling gw menggila sndirian karokean.. nyanyi2.. hahahhaa...

Get well soon appa!! odaijiniii~

2 hari ini gw tidur pagi mulu.. you know the reason?? well, i give you a clue :

hehee,, well, not him only.. but with his team member.. KANJANI 8.

yups, si dea ngasih gw video banyak banget ttg Kanjani 8. dan banyak dapet beberapa conversation kansai ben.. jadi makin semangat nontonnya. selain ngeliatin voto2 dy, tp juga blajar dikit2 bahasa mereka.. heehehehe.. XD

sangat menyenangkan bisa nyantei2 di rmh, waaa, i hope this will last forever.. hahaha

H-30

well, jadi juga gw pegi ke japan. i'm expecing that,though. Lot of things happened, yet,i'm curious what'll gonna happen next. makin deket tanggal keberangkatan bikin gw makin mikir, beneran gw bakal pegi neh? hahahaha.. Kadang gw suka ga percaya sndiri deh, ternyata mimpi gw dr sma bisa kesampean sekarang.. BUT, sometimes i feel so lonely. thinking i will be alone there. i'm not scare, but thinking there's no mom, dad, dea, and all my friends, especially no appa! It's sad..

(┰ω┰)

Sooo many things that's unfinished and i still want to spend my day with my appa. my first anniversary, new year's eve, valentine's day, and so many thingsss...

i hope just for this year,we are apart. huhu..

well, just enjoy the life i think.. what matters now is i have what i want, and how i manage to spend my days before going aboard. goodluck for me! haha

(*｀д´)b OK!