just another day

another day passed by, and it makes me sad thinking that i won't do this again for the next 1 year. today we ate at kiyadon sushi, he doesn't like sushi but i insist. so he ate them. poor him. so sorry~ T_T
the more i spent my days with him, the more i love being his girl. i'm so gonna miss him a lot...

Being his girl doesn't mean i completely think he's so perfect. he's sooooo imperfect.. ^o^
but i still can stand his imperfectness. i just hope they don't get worse. if they get any worse, i'm gonna bite him. hahaha

everybody told me that having a long distance relationship is as hard as keeping the ice in the fire. well, i agree with that, though. but it's not impossible. i believe this is just a small test before i really sure he is the one. i'm not playing around with my love life. i don't want to waste my time just to meet one boy, being in love, and break up, then meet another one, knowing him again, loving him, and break up again. it's just wasting my time. i just want to have one long lasting relationship. my dream is having the first and last boyfriend. so i won't waste him.

But, that doesn't mean i will push my relationship with him. in case if we better seperate, i won't make a drama. if that's the best way for us, i'll accept that. but that's the worst case happened. i'll try not to make that happen though.

Back to reality, now what will gonna happen when i'm away?? first i'm gonna talk about me.

I'll find some new friends. i'll have fun there, and have new activities. well, that's good one.
without my phone, i can't SMS him everyday every hour just like now. maybe i can only chat with him by Yahoo messenger or facebook. i can't meet him for 1 year. he can't come to my place like always. we have a 2 hours difference of time. i'll eat alone without him and i can't bite him. no more kisses and hugs for the whole year.
Damn, i'm crying now.

Now, let's talk about him.

He'll have a lot of time. he said he wants to study hard to improve is grade. he can focus on his studying. this year, i hope he can get a job he want to. after all, i was the one who monopolize him. hahaha. now, i'm not around so he get more free time.
But, he can't go to my place anymore. we won't see each other for some time. he must find his meal alone (i think he doesn't mind it, because i always picked expensive food =P). he doesn't need to hold his phone to reply my SMS. i'm sure he'll get bored a lot, like when i was in my hometown. but he can't even SMS me. i'm sure he'll miss me, won't he? TT_TT

That's bad, really bad. can we pass the next year? i'm not sure. but, i hope for the best. i'm sure God will guide us. if we can pass this test, i'm sure i picked the right choice, making him as my first boy. maybe when time passed by, and hi, i'm back in 2011 later, when i read this post, i'll smile and say we made it.. or i'll cry and say we break it?? i hope not..

Dear God,
please make us strong enough to pass this obstacles. lead our way and give the best ending ever.
I'm sure You already created the best ending for all of us, and i hope for the best happy ending. Be with us everytime and don't leave us alone. Because whatever happen next, is Your plan and i believe in Your plan.
Amin...